Midwest Knit Girl

School’s Out For The Summer…

Posted on: May 12, 2010

Which means I have time now to do some of the things I’ve been wanting to do, but couldn’t because I had to study instead. Like make my quilt using the fabrics I blogged about here.  Or work on the stained glass project that I cut the glass out for last fall (it’s a fish!). Or catch up on emails, reading, knitting. Oh man, knitting. I miss knitting.

I have a sock that I finished knitting last fall but don’t remember what size needles I used, because for some unknown reason the needles aren’t in the project bag with the single sock. Yarny Old Kim gave me the yarn as a gift that I blogged about here, and it’s beautiful – I’ll figure out the needle issue because I really want a pair, not a single sock, darn it.

I’m also going to finally start the sweater I bought the yarn for more than a year ago. I blogged about that here. Actually, there isn’t much info there other than the yarn picture itself, but the sweater will be a fair isle one. The good thing is that I’ve lost weight so I can make the smaller size – yeah!

The last five months have been quite stressful but now it’s time to try and relax a little and enjoy life for a time. But also during the last month and a half, some very cool and positive things have happened. As each event transpired, I would briefly wonder why. Seriously – I can’t figure out why these good things keep happening to me. I know we shouldn’t look a gift horse in the mouth, but I don’t think I’ve done anything special to deserve these things. So I went to the bookstore last week and found a book that I think is helping me to understand what’s happening. Maybe what the author is talking about isn’t the real reason these things have been happening, but since I can’t prove it isn’t, I’m willing to keep reading the book to find out more.

The book I bought is called The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire by Deepak Chopra. As I’ve been reading the book I’ve come to realize that being more open and willing to try new things, no matter how hard, is so good for you. I’ve definitely become a stronger person emotionally over the past year and a half, and I’m no longer quite as shy as I used to be. In fact, I feel quite bold most of the time. I don’t know where that came from but it’s definitely there.

To this day, I still can’t believe I started a 40 credit program during one of the most stressful times of my life – I had just been laid off after 25 years at my job, my husband’s cancer had returned and he was considered terminal. But it was the right thing to do, I know it was. To this day I know I chose the right program, I feel it in my gut, and Frank always said he thought it was right too. Each time I would leave for school for a test, he would tell me to go to war and get that A! So I did.

Then this year at the end of February, he passed away and for the briefest moment I wanted to stop school, only a microsecond mind you, because it was so difficult to do my homework, go to school and also grieve for Frank. But I knew he would have been profoundly disappointed in me if I had quit, so I didn’t. To this day I have an A average for the program, so my perseverance has paid off. And by the way, lest one thinks community college is easy, you’re wrong. Especially when you aren’t willing to settle for less than an A.

Maybe I’ve developed some new-found determination over time. I don’t know. But what I do know, is that sometime last year I must have figured out that to sit back and let life rule me is not an option, I’m the one in charge.

Just watch me soar.


2 Responses to "School’s Out For The Summer…"

I know that my opinion is really not important, but I am so very proud of you.

Guinifer, it’s so good to hear from you, and thank you for being proud of me. I’m pretty damn proud of myself.

And now that I’m ‘back’ – and I am – I’ll be checking in with my knitter friends more often. I could never catch up with the sock knitter extraordinaire (um, you!) but I can at least get a FEW pair knit up this summer. I’ll have to lurk around your blog to see what patterns I like best.

p.s. Your opinion is very important to me, as I know you wouldn’t leave one if it wasn’t from the heart. 🙂

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